I’m Not the Boy by Matthew Milia

I'm not the boy that hurt you
But I might as well be
Eject you or insert you
The motion isn't healthy
I saw you on the weekend
Is there something you wanna tell me?

We'll get away for summer
Hang out on the Northline
I memorized your number
And the curvature of your spine
Bending in the water
Sending me a message stealthy

I'm not the boy who loved you
Who can say if I will?
I'm not the boy above you
Standing on the dusk hill
Vanishing in summer
Brandishing another beer

I'm not the boy beneath you
Squirming in your last ditch
I'm not the boy to teach you
Or sell you on a fast pitch
I'm just the boy that knows
The moment as it grows so near

What's the light?
You said it's Jupiter
We just might
Be getting stupider

When the stickiest answer
Is a Jolly Rancher
That's passed between mouths in the night
The lustful impending
Electrical ending
That's calmly intending to destroy
And I know that I'm not the boy

I'm not the boy to taste you
There's times I wish that I could
I'm not the boy to waste you
On something less than I should
I'm just the boy that knows
The moment as it grows so near

Appears on On the Northline